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JADED

2005.04.04
Carlo Santos
Theme: Defeatist

I
You hear the whispers people say out loud -
like some dark and stormy cloud has fogged your mind.
They’re saying that the beauty is in the rain…
but it ain’t easy to explain your sacrifice.

Tell me, what’s wrong with me?
I’ve seen the dangers. And so many times I’ve lost the fights…
and now I find it’s the same as before.

CHORUS1
Why am I back? Already been through this door.
I try to squint, but just can’t see anymore.
When faced with pain, no matter what’s wrong or right:
never let your guard down - ‘cuz it just ain’t worth the fight.

II
Even when the world came crashing down,
I never fell flat on the ground, nor dropped the ball.
But then I trip on something so profound;
gives my emotions the runaround… I start to fall.

Tell me, what’s wrong with me?
I’ve seen the future through these jaded eyes.
Still, I try to jump and fly… then come crashing down.

CHORUS2
Why am I thinking - that this madness sounds so “sane?”
Why am I always sinking, when trying to play their game?
I should’ve realized I’m all alone.
Think I’ll keep my guard up - cuz I’m so damn far from home.

INSTRUMENTAL

III
Tell me, what’s there for me?
Cuz I’ve struggled with the constant pain and fights - all my life, I’m so goddamned tired!
…so damn tired.

OUTRO
Why can’t I just run away from it all.
I try to get back what I’ve lost; the trust in life before my fall,
All is said and done; there ain’t nowhere else to run.
Can’t help but see the world through the setting of her sun.

When faced with pain, no matter what’s wrong or who’s right:
never let your guard down - ‘cuz it just ain’t worth the fight.