Yay, after all the quickie covers, I got to finish another original composition!

This song is very late; the “inspiration” [if you can call it that], was potent a few years ago when the “scars” were still fresh. A few days ago, I figured I’d sit down and finish the thing since all the songs I’ve been putting recently out not only weren’t originals, but were all “mellow” and shit. So here’s some rock for a change of pace.

People who hear it immediately try to “fish” out the issue that made me write this song, and for those who know, of course the question was always if I stilled had any “feelings” connected to it. So to put everything to rest, here’s the score:

The beautiful thing about music is that any type of negativity can be channelled into something worthwhile ¹ I actually like this song despite its “roots” rather than let it ruin your day. So the anger/rage I felt was all over and done with years ago, when I started the song. I simply returned to it today to finish it – because it was a damn waste of decent musical material.

Of course, ultimately, it’s a person’s choice if they let themselves be “bothered” by past experiences, but as far as I’m concerned, having my personality; while I do not forget (or forgive for that matter), I simply don’t let it bother me anymore 🙂

It is worth mentioning, that in order to finish the song (basically the lyrics were missing, I only had the chorus and the first part of the first verse when I put it on the backburner) I had to try to remember exactly the things that made me write the song, and now that they’ve been penned, it’s frightening to realize that the verses are an extremely accurate retelling of what I felt those days.

Not Welcome

I
Hey, my “old friend,”
could you tell me once again how “special” you think I am to you.
How you said you’ll “earn back” my trust… someday.

Can you explain,
why the things that you say seem to change whenever you speak to someone new?
Tell me, how are we supposed to know what’s “true?”

I know I’m no angel; it’s one thing we seem to share
If you really understood me, the least you could’ve been was fair

I guess you never really cared

CHORUS
I’ve seen it all this time;
how you’ve always crossed the line – and set me up to fall.
You never liked the truth; how I’ve always seen right through you.
Then you have the nerve to tell me that you “love” me;
how you never want to lose me – or was it to confuse me;
believing that this friendship was something you held so dear.

Well, you’re not welcome here.

II
I wouldn’t say that I was blind to your lies,
it’s just it never crossed my mind
that you could say the things you say
and manage convince me not to turn and walk away.
The way you say you’re sorry, all the promises you make…
is it easy when you break them?
The way you betray; it’s more than I can take.

I know I’m no angel – but I’ve always been “true”
I may have said some painful things, but I never “lied” to you.

Can you say the same thing too?

CHORUS

GUITAR SOLO

OUTRO
I’ve seen it all before, now I’m locking up the door.
Just go away, ‘cuz there ain’t no one here.
I’m headed for some better days; living life without you.
You can say all you want; tell the whole wide world your “pain”
But if you’re the victim,
I wonder who constantly kept on breaking the trust I used to hold so dear?

Well “dear,” you aint’ welcome here!

Arrangement wise, I chose a simple band setting; very raw and possible to perform live as is. Even the panning delays could be programmed in my floor processor (but of course for the recording, I chose the software delays for more control and the ability to adjust)